mud fight!!!

so last night i had the most fun that i've had in a long time. it rained all day and i thought it would be perfect to play mud kickball that night. unfortunetly no one had time to go out and play with me, but i still really wanted to go out and play in the puddles and mud. so i drug my two good friends, bethany and becca along and we went to pick up david. together we, or should i say i, frolicked through the huge mud puddles. i was quite soaked. and then it happened

i saw mud! lots and lots of mud! and david was right there. and i just had to throw it at someone. and so i did. and so began the mud war! at first it was just david and me and boy was i getting pelted. for like every time i hit him he hit me about 5 times. soon becca joined in the fun, while bethany steered clear and took pictures. then emily and kim came and we made teams. and boy did mud fly!! i was covered! completely. i might post a picture later. there was not a part of my body that was not plastered with mud. once we called a truce, we didn't know what to do with all the mud we'd acquired, so we went out to the retention ponds to "clean up." i definetly completely immersed myself. it was a good time. we then dripped and waddled back to our dorms. man- what a blast. good memories and so much laughter!

as i was reflecting on these memories today, i realized something. spiritually i am so muddy. i am covered with impurity. my good works are as filthy rags to God. sometime it seems like all that life is throwing at me is mud and i can't escape it. i am in need of a much needed cleansing. unfortunetly all too often, i try and clean myself up- just like when we went to the retention pond. i mean that helped a little, but it kinda just smeared the mud and made us smell worse. i mean we tried to clean ourselves up, but it just didn't work. we ended up being soggy and muddy. it wasn't until i jumped into the shower and i let the cleansing clean water pour over me and i scrubbed with soap that the mud layers began to come off and the smell began to leave. that's what i need to let God do for me. without him i am filthy and no amount of good works or self cleansing will work. i need to allow for Him to purify me, to take care of my sin and make me fresh and clean again. i'm just so independant sometimes. i think i can do it on my own and i can't. i'll just end up with a bigger mess. if i would only go to Him at the first splatter of mud, it would be so much easier, but i don't. i let it go on and on until i'm covered and hardly recognizable. then i try to take care of it myself. and only after that doesns't work do allow Christ to cleanse me and make me new.

so thanks, God, for the fun time last night, but also thank you for the spiritual significance you revealed to me. make me and mold me into your creation, pure and free in You.