love (and pollen) is in the air

yes, today is the first day of spring. it might only be 45 degrees, but spring is officially here. i for one can say that i am more than ready to pack up my parka and trade in my heavy winter shoes for light weight flip flops. my body is not so ready for spring and summer fashion, which seems to be getting skimpier and skimpier every year, but i am none the less thrilled to be able to go running outside without my lungs freezing up. and of course with the spring weather comes spring mating season, which my friends and i affectionatly call twitterpation season. everyone's hearts begin to thaw after a long winter of being frozen and are discovering their undying love for that special someone of the opposite sex. they might not have wanted anything to do with that person during the winter, but there is just something about spring...all of a sudden all they want is that person. the butterflys begin. the spark of electircity when eyes meet. park benches, long vacant during the IN deep freeze months are suddently full of couples cuddling, laughing and... well...doing other IWU inappropirate things... ahhh love is in the air. and i must say that this season i am content to sit back and watch the drama unfold.

as much as i would like to be involved in the soap opera of spring love, i know that God has me here for a reason and i am not ready, emotionally, or spirtually for another relationship. i still have too many emotions to work through. i need to figure out who i am and what i want before i can bring another person into my life. and i'm not going to lie- there is still a little hurt and pain leftover from a previoius relationship. not a lot,but it's still too soon to go diving into another relationship. i don't want just another spring fling that will end with the school year. i'm looking for something more long term, and i am not at a point in my life where i am ready for that. not to mention that God willing i'll be in guatemala for three months this summer and i have no desire to take a relationship down there with me. so this spring i'm determined to be content with just watching all the new budding romance around me. yes, love is in the air, but don't you worry... so is pollen and this girl plans on getting her fair share of that on her daily runs. :)